Rooftop View

Josh thought Todd looked defeated as they walked back to his car.  The date hadn’t happened the way he would have wanted it to happen but there seemed to be little he could do to save it.  They got into the car and he began to drive.  He turned left out of the parking lot not sure where he was headed.  Todd sunk against the passenger side door.

No one spoke for a long time and Josh felt worse with each moment of silence.  He thought about the coffee Todd had ordered, the counting of money as they waited to order.  Not everyone can be bankrolled by scholarships and a father’s money, though he didn’t spend it the way his father would have approved, but still it was his money.  He wanted to change everything, make the date, the night better.  He wanted to make Todd happy but there was little that interested him.  Then the thought occurred to him.

“Do you want to see my campus?” Josh asked.

Todd looked up from the door and to Josh who stopped the car at a red light and looked back.

“What do you mean?”

Josh shrugged his shoulders.

“Well, it’s pretty late and most everyone is gone.  Sometimes on nights like this I just like to walk around my campus.  Most every building is locked but there are still some cool things to see.  Do you have to be home soon?”

Todd looked to his watch and saw that it was only after 8 o’clock.  He shrugged his shoulders and said, “Why not?”.

The light turned green and Josh told Todd to get his phone out and type in the address of the campus as he had gotten himself lost.  In minutes they were on the highway and headed to campus after that he followed the familiar route back into the parking and found an empty spot under a light.  He made sure the windows were up and both doors were locked when they were closed.

They walked together from the lot, not too close, friend close.  And Josh suddenly thought about what he was doing.  He was taking his date, another boy on campus.  Would he want to see his dorm?  Would his roommates be home?  Would they meet?  Would they know he was gay and by extension know that Josh was gay?  What the hell kind of date was this?

As they got closer to the housing area they heard the sounds of a party.  It wasn’t where Josh had wanted to go.  He wanted to go somewhere else.  He had something else in mind.  If it worked.  But as they walked by the party Todd seemed distracted by the activity.  They stopped.

“Want to go inside?”

“Do you know who’s party it is?”

“It doesn’t matter,” Josh answered.

“Oh,” Todd replied.  He had never been inside a college party.  “Maybe we can just check it out.”

“Sure,” Josh said before turning back and leading the way to the party that was on the second floor of an dorm apartment style building.  Todd followed close behind, closer when they entered into the dark, barely lit space.  Inside the bass that they heard was overwhelming along with a cacophony of people talking and the finer parts of the music.

People stood anywhere they wanted.  They lined the hallway, moved back and forth into rooms, stayed in doorways, but Josh led them to the living room where a small DJ table had been set-up along with several speakers.  The source of the music was a skinny man who pressed headphones to one ear as he stared at a laptop screen and held the other hand over what looked like a turn table.

Todd thought to say something and he moved closer but Josh stopped and he bumped into him.

“Sorry,” he yelled out.

Josh turned to him.

“What do you think?”

“Let’s get out of here,” Todd yelled.

Josh nodded and Todd turned and began to push his way back through the crowd that seemed to have grown behind them.  With Josh’s help he pushed back out into the cool winter night, past the smokers and down the steps to the sidewalk.  Todd suck a finger in his ear and wiggled it around to try and get his ears to return to normal.  Josh moved to him and placed a hand on his shoulder.

“Not your thing?”

“It was so loud,” Todd said.

“Come on,” Josh replied.

They walked from the apartments to the dorms and Josh pointed out that was where most Freshman lived then they made their way to the campus of brick and stone buildings, connected by concrete and brick paths, lined with trimmed trees and landscaped bushes.  It was supposed to look natural but it still felt constructed, designed.  They passed one building and Josh said it was gymnasium.

“Do they have a pool?”

“They do but the building is locked.  And it has security, I know because I go there like everyday for training.”

“So no skinny dipping then?”

Josh turned to Todd and laughed before looking away and quickening his pace.  He called for Todd to follow him and Todd picked up his own speed past the sign that said Library.  They entered easily and Josh led them down a hallway past the elevators and to a stairwell.

“You can’t trust the elevators at night,” Josh said before he began to climb the steps two at a time.

Todd tried to follow in the same way but found by the third floor he was falling behind so when Josh noticed he slowed and waited until Todd caught up with him until the seventh floor, the top floor.  Josh exited into the hallway and Todd followed.  They walked down the long hall to the other wing of the building.

“Where are we going?”

“It’s a surprise,” Josh said.  “If it works.”

Josh stopped at another stairwell door but this one had a turn handle and was locked.  Josh produced his student ID and easily picked the lock then opened the door.  He ushered Todd inside then gently let the door swing back into place stopping it short from closing.  Todd spotted the stairs up and the sign that said, roof access.  He looked to Josh who smiled back then led the way.  He got to the top of the stairs and picked another lock and opened the door.  Todd followed and stepped out onto the gravel covered roof top where he spotted two, upside down lawn chairs that had been left there for frequent visitors.

“People come here regularly?” he asked.

“Mostly smoke breaks,” Josh said.  “I found all kinds of cigarette butts up here before.”

“Nice,” Todd said.

“Let’s have a seat,” Josh said.  He moved to the two chairs and turned them over.

“It’s the middle of winter,” Todd said.

“Thank god for global warming because this is the mildest winter ever,” Josh replied.

“So they say.”  He moved to one of the upturned chairs and sat.  Josh did the same nearby.  They were close enough to touch knees, hold hands but Todd left his firmly in his pockets.

From their spot they could see the tops of trees, part of the night sky and only a few stars that weren’t blocked out by the campus lights.

“So do you bring lots of dates up here?” Todd asked.

“You’re the first,” Josh replied.

And like that, somehow, their tension was broken between them, diffused.  They were both no longer thinking about other things.  They had pushed through a limit together, broken rules together.

“My date sucked,” Todd said.

Josh let out a laugh then stopped himself.

“It was fine,” he said.

“No it wasn’t.  It sucked.  And not in a good way.”

Josh didn’t laugh and Todd found himself searching for new words as his joke had gone down in flames.

“So how did you find out about this place?”

“I get restless sometimes and I used to hate sleeping in my old dorm room because it was a shared room.  So I used to go out at night and just wonder around.  I started finding things.”

“And picking locks,” Todd added.

“Not to anything too private or sensitive, just locks for stairwells and things.”

“Right,” Todd said.  “So where are they hiding the UFO?”

Josh made a polite laugh then said he couldn’t tell.

“See my point,” Todd said.

They sat in the darkness for a moment without speaking until Josh asked if he could hold Todd’s hand.

“It’s cold,” Todd said.

“It doesn’t matter, I can warm it up,” Josh replied.

“No, my hand is fine I mean the weather it’s cold out here,” Todd said.

“Oh,” Josh said.  “Do you want to go back inside?”

“In a little bit,” Todd said.  He stood and walked to the railing at the back of the building.

Down below he could see the empty lawn covered over mostly in shadow and snow which made the surface look strange as if it were a flat surface.  He was surprised when he felt Josh move behind him.  He thought about turning around but as Josh moved closer he welcomed the idea of what he thought might happen.  He was still pleasantly surprised when he felt the reality of it, the pressure of Josh against his backside, arms around him.

“Is this okay?” Josh asked.

“Yes,” Todd answered.

“Can I kiss you?”

Todd turned his head to where he thought Josh’s mouth would meet him and it was there, somehow more warm than he had expected.  Their tongues touched.  His cheeks burned.  He grabbed at Josh’s hands that grabbed at his own leather jacket.  They kissed for a long time until their seemed no reasonable way out of their predicament and then Todd pulled out of the embrace and turned on his new partner.

“What are we doing?”

“It seemed right,” Josh said.

“I know but--”

“Don’t worry about it,” Josh interrupted, “no one comes up here.”

“That wasn’t what I was thinking.  It’s cold.  It’s winter.”

“Let’s go inside,” Josh said.  “There are plenty of places.”

Todd reached back for the railing.  He felt as if he would collapse for a moment before a resurgence of strength.  He was worried that someone would find them.  He was worried they would get caught.  But he was worried about something else.  It felt like it could be the end of the world.  Josh reached out and took his hand then pulled him from the railing and back to the door where he led them back inside down the stairs to the door out into the hallway but it was closed.

“Fuck,” Josh said.

“It closed on us?”

“Looks like it but I can pick it,” Josh said.

Todd was suddenly worried about what or who they might find on the other side of that door so he turned Josh to him and moved to kiss him again.  He was suddenly aware of their size difference, their body difference, and all in the fake, white light of the stairwell.  But his body felt warmer, warmer but not entirely comfortable.  He pulled back from Josh.

“I don’t want to go all the way,” he said.

“Okay,” Josh responded.  “What’s ‘all the way’ mean to you?”

Todd smiled.

“You know,” he said.

Josh pulled him into a kiss then pushed them together across the landing to the wall as his hands began to push against Todd’s clothing, under his jacket and shirt his cold hands grabbed at Todd’s flesh.  But they were cold hands, a stranger’s hands.  Todd closed his eyes and tilted his head back as he enjoyed the sensations.  Then the hands were gone from his ribs and he felt his jeans being tugged at, opened.  His underwear manipulated.  He inhaled deeply.

Eyes tightly shut he tried to not think about the lights, the cold stairwell, the night sky and then they were gone and something else occupied his brain, a feeling and desperation.  He grabbed at Josh’s hair, felt the back of his head.

“Oh god,” he said.

Nude Recruits (excerpt from Teased: Brief Erotic Stories)

When my roommate in college told me that he was going to be joining a fraternity I simply wished him luck because I had a pretty good idea from all of the television I had watched what happened during a hazing of new recruits.

Orientation week before classes he disappeared on Saturday evening and he didn’t return until the next Sunday morning chipper and full of energy.  I awoke to his key in the door turning back the auto-locking deadbolt but I rolled over to go back to sleep when the door hit the wall.  He was so excited.

I rolled back over to see him move to his corner of the room where his bed was as he began to undress.  I watched for a moment as his bare back flexed in the gold sunlight.  I could see the back of his head and his blonde, curly hair.  I was hard instantly.

And as he pulled down his pants I eagerly awaited him to drop his underwear and maybe catch a glimpse of his pale buttocks.  But he didn’t.  Instead he turned on me, or at least in my direction and I closed my eyes.

“Hey Craig, are you awake?”

“What is it Josh?” I replied.

“I’m a member now.  It was hell but I did it.”

He moved to the bathroom door and since I knew he was headed through the doorway I peaked again but was disappointed to see he was still in his boxers.  He closed the door and I waited.

The shower water ran for a long time before it was off and he was out of the bathroom with a white cotton towel around his waist.  He was at the sink and mirror.  By that time with all the water I had to urinate but now I had an erection again so I had to figure out how to negotiate the situation.  But as I watched him I couldn’t help but notice that he had no body hair.  I mean when I saw him last he had little, light body hair but now he had none.  No armpit hair even, so I asked him about it.

“Dude it was sick.  The first thing they made us do when we got there was strip each other down using only our teeth.  I saw more dick this weekend than is in a gay porno.”

“That’s a lot of dick,” I said.

“Seriously dude I ain’t kidding.  Balls, dick, man-ass... I can’t really go into the details but I know for sure now that I am not gay.  I mean not to say I did anything gay, just normal hazing stuff but still.  We were naked at one point and jumping up and down in front of these cheerleaders.  We had to do this whole dance routine.  It was crazy.”

“Didn’t suck anything did you?”

“Funny, but no, I didn’t suck any dick,” he said.

He walked to his corner of the room and pulled on a new pair of underwear under his towel before he took it off.  I could still see the way his underwear clung to his skin, the way his buttocks flexed as he moved.  I was flat on my stomach trying to ignore my throbbing cock against the bed, not think about me leaking and staining the mattress.

“Too bad initiation is over because you should have considered joining,” he said.

I suddenly felt guilty.  Did he think I would have enjoyed the hazing?  Was it obvious I was gay and checking him out in our room?

“There are a lot of benefits to joining.  They have private parties, discounts at stores owned by legacy members, and even study groups.  Bet you didn’t think they’d have that?  But a lot of the guys are very smart.”

He pulled on his undershirt, jeans, and then tucked the former into the latter before he tightened his belt.  I watched as he filled his pockets with his possessions, found a t-shirt, then pulled it over his head.  He looked at himself in the mirror.

“What do you think?” he asked.

“Looks good,” I said.

“I’m going for brunch.  Are you going?”

“Maybe,” I said.  I wanted to get up, shower, dress, and follow along with him but the erection was too much so I thought I would wait, rub one out, and then do everything, maybe catch up with him at the table.

“Well, don’t be too long, they’re only open for another hour,” he said.

“No problem,” I replied.

He left our room and I finally could roll to my back and reach for my cock.  I played with it a little bit.  I was on edge.  I wished I could have used a sock to catch my cum but having a roommate made it impossible to keep one.  I thought about crossing to the bathroom but didn’t like the idea even though it was my room and I was alone.  I decided to use my underwear.  I slipped them off, doubled them over and held it to the lip when I finally climaxed.

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