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Faced with supporting a wife and baby daughter a young man decides to go into gay porn.
01- The Motel
The swimming pool of a low-end motel just outside Baltimore, MD. It was close to midnight and the air had cooled significantly, John worked his arms and legs to stay afloat in the deep end. He was fine to just float, to kick his legs and move his arms in a way that he had once learned from a pamphlet left somewhere by the YMCA.
Swimming lessons were supposed to be last year’s birthday gift but his mother couldn’t get him there on the weekends because she had to work ‘extra-hours’ and now he was fourteen and going to high school next year. He dreaded the thought of swimming in gym class if he ever had to do it.
His chin just above the surface he stared across the water to the boy he had just met that day, Kevin, who swam away with an easy stroke to the side of the pool. Kevin was a year younger but he could swim like a fish and John suspected he was smarter too.
“Come here,” Kevin said.
John winced at the invitation because no matter how he tried he knew he would look foolish trying to swim there. He sighed then began to cross to the side of the pool in his best doggy-paddle. When he reached the side he grabbed onto it like a life preserver and felt relief when he was able to anchor his body to the stone.
“Are you tired yet?” Kevin asked.
“No, you?”
“No,” Kevin laughed.
“So what else do you want to do?”
“I don’t know.”
They both looked to John’s mother, Kelly, who lay on a deck chair keeping a supervisory watch over them from behind a pair of sunglasses she had been wearing since before the sun went down.
“What else is there to do mom?” John asked.
“Sleep,” she said. “You guys have been busy playing for the last six hours or so. Why don’t you guys go to bed?”
“I’m not tired,” John said.
“Me either,” Kevin said. “I wish you could come back to my room I have an Xbox.”
“Do you have any good games?”
“Lots,” Kevin said.
John bit at his lip as he thought about asking to go to Kevin’s room to play video games because he suspected she wouldn’t let him but they were on vacation so it was worth asking.
“Hey mom can we go to Kevin’s room and play video games?”
“Well, I don’t know. I’m sure they are going to kick us out any moment but I’m not sure about video games. Your mom must be worried about you though.”
“Yeah, I guess,” Kevin said.
“John is going to be headed to bed soon. I’m sure your mom doesn’t want you up all night. Why don’t you go make sure she doesn’t think you’re lost?”
Kevin looked to John who shrugged his shoulders.
“Can he stay out a little longer?”
She reached for her martini glass and took a sip then held it out in front of her face, swirled the remaining liquid. She raised the glass in an imagined toast then brought it back to her lips and drank the rest of it.
“No, I think it would be best if he headed back to his room now,” she said.
They looked at each other as they were trumped by her authority.
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“Well, okay, but we should go swimming tomorrow morning before we have to leave,” Kevin said.
“Yeah, that would be great.”
Kevin turned and pulled himself from the water. He walked to the chair where he picked up his towel and began to dry himself. He looked to John and said goodnight before he wrapped the towel around his shoulders and walked from the pool area, making sure to close the gate behind him.
“Why don’t you get out of the water? You have to be a prune by now. Everyone else has gone inside.” She placed the glass back on the table then reclined back into the most comfortable position.
“Okay,” he replied before he gripped the side of the pool firmly then pulled himself from the water. He adjusted his trunks and a shiver ran out from his spine. He looked at his finger tips but he couldn’t make out any detail in the darkness.
The area was dimly lit by the glow of a few lights placed inconveniently around the deck. The lights were low and weak, the minimum needed for night safety or less.
“It’s cold out here,” he said before crossing his arms and moving to the end of his mother’s chair. He picked up a towel and began to dry himself.
His mother looked up at him through her sunglasses. She could only make out his form but she knew what was there. He had a strong chin, broad shoulders, and naturally athletic build and he was going to be short. He had put on a little weight over winter but she knew it would be gone in the spring when he got back into sports. He was going to be a heartbreaker, she thought, just like his father. He was smart, athletic, and not too cocky. He was honest and could be very sincere but sometimes, rarely, he had a fit of anger.
“This is the life,” she said.
“It’s nice.” He wrapped the towel around his waist and picked up the second one which he wrapped around his shoulders before he stepped to the stand beside his mother and picked up her silver, cigarette case. He took out a cigarette and put it between his lips.
“You’re lucky I’m drunk,” she said.
“Good to know,” John said. He picked up the matching lighter and lit the cigarette quickly before returning them both within her reach.
He had inhaled cigarette smoke a few times but was wary of lung cancer so he didn’t do it all of the time. He took a seat in the chair on the other side of the stand.
“Clark is a nice guy,” she said.
“Yeah,” he said. Clark was the third boyfriend he knew about since his father had left them when he was five years old. He liked Clark.
“It was nice of him to take us on vacation for a few days. I don’t get to take you all the places I’d like to.”
It was a thought of regret, regret for something John knew his mother had no control over. It was a pointless thought to him. It wasn’t meaningless because it meant she felt bad, no it was just sad. He didn’t like sad thoughts about things you couldn’t control.
“I can’t believe everyone else had to go inside. What time is it?”
“I think it’s after eleven. I’m surprised that one boy stayed out with you as long as he did.”
John nodded. Most other parents had strict bed times for their children, strict curfews and rules. If his mother was having a good time then he knew he could have stayed all night at the pool. He kind of wanted to. It was nice to swim in the pool after dark because the sun wasn’t out and there was no glare.
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In the darkness the world shrank, didn’t seem so large and so impossible. He closed his eyelids, checked with his thumb to make sure the cigarette was secure in his hand, and let himself relax. He wasn’t like that long before he heard the sound of a car pulling into the parking lot, shutting off, and the door opening.
If it were Clark, he thought, it would be easy to see them from where he would have to park in front of the motel room door. He heard the sound of dress shoes on gravel and knew the man was headed their way.
“How are you guys doing?” Clark asked from the other side of the gate. John and his mother looked to the familiar voice and smiled.
Clark was just over six foot tall with a dark Italian complexion. He wore a white shirt and canary yellow tie, dark slacks and black dress shoes. He opened the gate and walked to them easily with a calm, determined gate. He was a salesman. She always said her boyfriends were.
“I’m sorry I had to be out all day and we couldn’t do anything. I promise I’ll make it up to you.” He stopped at Kelly’s side, leaned in to give her a welcome kiss and took the cigarette from her hand. He stood and took a puff before handing it back and giving her another second kiss briefly on the lips.
“Have you guys been swimming?”
“John’s been in all day,” she said.
“Probably a prune then,” Clark said.
John winced at the remark because it was what his mother had said.
“I’m fine,” he said.
“Then you probably don’t want to go back in,” Clark replied as he loosened his tie. He pulled it off and dropped it on the chair, unbuttoned the collar of his shirt. “Maybe we should throw your mother in.” He took back the cigarette.
“Oh no you don’t, I’ve just had my nails done today.”
“Okay,” Clark said kicking off his shoes.
“What are you doing?” she asked.
“What’s it look like,” Clark replied as he unbuttoned the sleeves of his shirt. “I’m going to go for a swim.”
“Now? You don’t have any trunks.”
He pulled off his dress shirt then maneuvered his undershirt around the cigarette and dropped them in her lap, stuck the cigarette between his lips and unfastened his belt.
“Clark,” Kelly said.
He turned away, from where John sat and had been watching them, towards the pool and dropped his pants. “Nothing no one doesn’t see at home.” He handed back the cigarette and pulled off his socks before he walked to the pool’s edge. There John could make out the man’s form in silhouette. He could see the man’s shoulders, the shape of his back, even his buttocks and maybe, there in the darkness was the man’s penis still covered by thin, white briefs. Should he be seeing the man’s penis, he asked himself. Was he supposed to look away? What was he supposed to do?
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The man had made no action to cover himself. And it was true, Clark had often walked around the house in his underwear or a towel.
Clark jumped into the water in a cannonball type dive. He popped up and let out a loud yell of relief then a sound of irritated pain before he complained about it not being heated.
“I guess I got used to it,” John said.
Clark swam to the edge and placed his hands there.
“Why don’t you join me?”
John looked to his mother who motioned for him to get into the pool. He stood and stretched for a moment before he dropped the towels on the chair, took a few steps, and jumped. Clark laughed at the sight before he quickly swam to the young man.
When John surfaced he was surprised to feel Clark’s hands around his sides to hook under his arm pits and he knew what was coming so he let out a playful yell then closed his mouth before he hit the water as Clark had dunked him sideways into it. He pulled the boy up and did it to him again on the opposite side. John let out wild laughter as he popped back up from the water.
For a moment he could feel Clark’s chest against his back, so much larger than his own body, hairy too. Clark lifted him from the water and pushed him away then swam back some distance, stopped, and began to splash water. John turned on the man and splashed water back in his direction. It had been a long time since someone had done something like that and if it had been anyone else John might have been angry about it but Clark, well Clark could get away with those things.
“If we had more people we could play Marco Polo,” Clark said.
“Yeah, we were playing that earlier. It’s a fun game.”
“Are you a good swimmer? We could race.”
“No, that’s okay,” John said.
“Come on it will be fun. I’ll give you a lead.”
John shook his head.
“I don’t know,” he said. “I’m not really that good.”
“Do you know how?”
John shook his head.
“No sweat maybe we can do it later. I can show you how.”
John looked to his mother. It was the type of promise he had heard before but it felt more sincere. He nodded.
“But let’s just enjoy the quiet huh?”
John nodded then watched as the man swam to the far end of the pool with an easy back stroke. That was the lesson he should have learned, to do the back stroke. Clark then pushed off from the wall and swam the length of the pool as John bobbed in the water. Another lesson to be learned. John looked to his mother who seemed to be equally entertained as if they were sharing a moment.
They swam for some time with very little contact between them, each mostly sticking to their own area of the pool. Clark liked to swim from end to end while John clung to the wall or else did a few deep dives which he had taught himself to do. John had forgotten he was swimming in the same pool as a nearly naked man until it was time to get out. Very little was said. It was more an unconscious agreement that all the joy had been drained from the event. His mother retrieved a towel and carried it to the pool side next to the steps.
By then John was hanging onto the pool side where Clark was exiting. It wasn’t on purpose, he thought, but as the man exited he couldn’t help but look to him, at him. There in the light he could make out his buttocks more clearly than before and the way the cloth clung at his crotch. His mother wrapped the towel around the man attempting to conceal him in yet another form fitting fabric.
They returned to their rooms shortly afterwards. His mother and Clark together in one room and John in his own room, “to do things that fourteen year old boys do and to let parents do the things they want to do,” Clark had said. John knew it meant that he had privacy to masturbate and they needed privacy to have sex.
John showered, put on a pair of underwear then lay face down on his bed. His body felt surprisingly light, his muscles felt loosely attached to his body with a slight burn. He thought he would be capable of swimming more but his brain was tired.
There in the darkness of his room he heard the slow grunts of his mother and Clark as they had sex. There was a connecting door between the rooms, a thin one. He appreciated that they were trying to be quiet, it even made him smile, but it also made him feel unlucky, even miserable to hear them and know the sounds for the rest of his life.
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